Heavenly Father,
I don’t understand. Please help me to see. I know you and only you can make the tests wrong. You can prove to everyone you are a miracle worker.
I know I have strayed far from you and I am sorry.
Lord, only you know what happened, only you can make their hearts beat again.
Lord, only you know the outcome of this and can see how this is going to end and so now I want to surrender myself and my babies to you.
Lord, if they are sick, if they could not take this world then thank you and I love you for taking care of them and keeping them in your loving arms. Lord, they are far better off than I am.
If you want me to take care of them, Lord, I would be honored and I will do what I can to be a good mom.
I am asking, Lord, in this moment that you do your will, not mine, but yours. If you are willing to take this from me, then I will promise to do my part in caring for them.
If it is your will, then I promise to love you no matter what your decision.
Over and over, I prayed. Over and Over, I submitted my will.
Not my will but yours be done. I promise to love you, no matter what.
As my heart wrenched, I said, Lord, I ask for one thing. I ask that you give me peace beyond my understanding.
Also, if you are encouraged by this and other articles you read here, could you please share this with your friends and family. I would love for them to join us.
Thanks, Jaime, for bringing us into your grieving and healing process.
And thanks, too, for featuring Meghan's writing space here. She's such an encouraging friend.
I am glad that you have come on this journey with me. She is such an encouragement as so many of you are. I appreciate you visiting us here every week, Michele.
I am sorry for your loss, sweet Jaime. I pray these words find hearts who need to know they are not alone. The garden prayers. Oh, yes. I know of these too. You are right though, in the end they are so fruitful because God always has a bigger scope and plan than what our eyes can see. Thanks for sharing my blog here! I appreciate your words and your gentle spirit as you write each week, friend. Prayers & blessings!
Thanks for sharing with us every week, Meg. I do appreciate the encouragement you offer to others and your honest place of writing and help people along the journey. Have a great week!
Thank you for sharing your story Jaime, it was beautifully written. I was just recently thinking about the fact that God feels heartbreak, that Jesus felt pain, and how oddly comforting that is when we feel those things. God knows how we feel, so amazing.
Thank you so much, Kira. Isn't it amazing that God shares in our heartbreak. We are His children and just as our heart breaks He knows and understands our pain. We can find great comfort in the fact that God knows! Thank you so much for coming here, friend!
What a beautiful prayer, Jaime. And that you for sharing your story!! <3
Thank you, Lauren and thanks for stopping by!
I love Meg and seeing her featured here!
She is a so encouraging and has such a great heart for sharing her love of the Lord, just as so many of the people that come here every week, such as yourself. I do appreciate you and you encouraging comments every week, Susan.
Love reading your story! It is so encouraging!
Thank you so much, Keri. I do appreciate your kind words. You site looks great by the way! I like the layout and all that you are doing there.
Thank you Jaime for sharing your story! It's so encouraging to see God come in and fill those broken areas with His love. We know that it's available to each of us also.
Nice seeing Meg here too! I love her blog!
Julie
I am glad you are here every week, Julie! It is so encouraging to see God come into those places and cracks that we feel will remain broken. In the moment we may not be able to see how He will restore us but we can be certain that if we let Him, He will! Thanks for sharing with us, friend!
This post touched me so deeply. I have had such a moment too. I sought God in my own garden during a time of despair and He came and touched me beyond belief. Thanks for sharing your heart and for this special linkup.
Isn't He so gracious, Mary. He will not only heal us but is willing to do it much beyond what we can comprehend. He gives us more that all we could ask or imagine. Thanks for visiting our linkup here, Mary!
Such a powerful testimony of release and acceptance, Jaime. I'm certain God is using your story to comfort and minister to others. God bless you.
God is good! That is the foundational truth that we have to believe. From there we can build a stronger faith always relying on Him. When the ground begins to shake and our footings want to give way, we have Him to give us hope in the fall of His faithfulness. Thanks so much for sharing with is here, June. I am glad to have you!
Dear Jaime, this is such a wonderful post. Anyone who has been through the heartache of miscarriage, would surely be uplifted. I am happy to be joining you this week. Mimi xxx
Thanks so much, Mimi! I appreciate you being here this week. I do hope this encourages someone and their aching or healing heart! May God be glorified, as always, through it all.
Jaime..glad I got her today, and I am sorry to hear this story yet happy that God gives us comfort I. All seasons
I am so glad you are here today too, friend! I have missed seeing your posts and was just going to check in on you. Have a great weekend!
Thanks for hosting! Just found your link up today; can't wait to continue linking up in the future, and to explore your blog more!
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Thank you, Casey for visiting us here today and welcome you enjoy what you see and read. I write to encourage others in their journeys and I hope you find this to be a source of that encouragement! Have a great week!
Great prayer and you are a strong person.
I tend to say little prayers through out the day. It gives me comfort.
Thanks for hosting and have a good week.
I think that is great, Patrick. 1 Thessalonians tells is to pray continually or pray without ceasing. God wants to hear it all all day long. Little or big he wants to hear them all. Have a great week, my friend!
Jaime you are so strong. God bless you. Though I've had my share of surrendering prayers- over houses and relationships- none come close to yours. Thank you for sharing- and for featuring dear Meg! ♥
Thank you for that, Heather but the truth is I have a strong God. Tonight my kids and I were reading about how God spoke the whole world in to existence with His spoken word. Now that is power and strength that I want on my side. So glad you are here, friend!
Wow Jaime! I love the tern Garden Prayer. To answer your question, my "garden prayer" occurred in nothing resembling a garden at all. My hospital bed. It was there in that moment six years ago I realized God had a plan for my life. It did not involve making six figures, driving a fancy car, or living in an exclusive neighborhood. He has an exclusive neighborhood planned(Heaven) for me. In the meantime, He desires that I am sold out for Him and His glory. As my transformation continues my love for Jesus grows stronger each day. Thank you for sharing this beautiful, heartfelt post with us here. What an inspiration. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. May continue to richly bless you and yours.