Being a parent, often times, things are out of my control. I can do
my best to teach my kids right from wrong but then the decisions they make are
up to them.
Being the mom of small kids, out of control seems to be
sometimes more regular than not. Kids have a mind of their own and when their
minds start flowing, rerouting is not always an option.
sometimes more regular than not. Kids have a mind of their own and when their
minds start flowing, rerouting is not always an option.
When I first became a mom, I had ideas about how the whole
thing would go. When things didn’t go my way, trust me no one was happy.
thing would go. When things didn’t go my way, trust me no one was happy.
You know the saying, when momma’s not happy; no one is
happy. That was me in my family.
happy. That was me in my family.
What an unrealistic way to live because no mom or dad can control things
all the time.
all the time.
I don’t know about you, but I like to be in control. I like
things to go my way. I’m selfish. Anyone with me on that? I know you are not
raising your hands on that comment. Who wants to admit their own selfishness?
things to go my way. I’m selfish. Anyone with me on that? I know you are not
raising your hands on that comment. Who wants to admit their own selfishness?
In fact, when my husband and I had our first son, my husband
could do nothing right. He couldn’t correct our son properly, or calm him just
the right way, or talk to him the way I could. Ridiculous, I know. The ridiculous
part is I thought things could only be done my way.
could do nothing right. He couldn’t correct our son properly, or calm him just
the right way, or talk to him the way I could. Ridiculous, I know. The ridiculous
part is I thought things could only be done my way.
What a miserable environment I created. But in my head I
thought it was my environment and I had to be in control.
thought it was my environment and I had to be in control.
How did God move me from that way of thinking? God has a way
of drawing us near to him. Although I am going to give you this story briefly (I
will write more about this another time), this was my turning point.
of drawing us near to him. Although I am going to give you this story briefly (I
will write more about this another time), this was my turning point.
When our oldest son was about 15 or 16 months old, we found out
that we were having another child. Perfect. Our planning was just right. My
kids would be about two years apart, just the way I always planned it.
that we were having another child. Perfect. Our planning was just right. My
kids would be about two years apart, just the way I always planned it.
Doctors appointments went as normal. Child number two was on the way. In the middle week 21 we went for our
ultra sound, and got quite a surprise. We were not having child number two but
child two and three.
ultra sound, and got quite a surprise. We were not having child number two but
child two and three.
WOW! We were not expecting that. But what we were not
expecting was the words that came out of the technician’s mouth next, “I
can’t find heart beats.”
expecting was the words that came out of the technician’s mouth next, “I
can’t find heart beats.”
The only thing I could cry over and over was, “What? I don’t
understand?” I was so confused. Just a couple of weeks prior there was a heartbeat.
understand?” I was so confused. Just a couple of weeks prior there was a heartbeat.
Life? I had it figured out and now it was out of my control.
My heart was broken into a million pieces and there was nothing I could do to
fix it.
My heart was broken into a million pieces and there was nothing I could do to
fix it.
I had to carry the twins for a week before they were able to
take them. In that week Christ changed my life in ways I would have never imagined.
take them. In that week Christ changed my life in ways I would have never imagined.
I had been saved when I was younger but had never really
surrendered my whole life over to God. I lived under the false impression that
giving my life to Christ didn’t really mean giving “MY” life to Christ.
surrendered my whole life over to God. I lived under the false impression that
giving my life to Christ didn’t really mean giving “MY” life to Christ.
I would lay on my bed
with my Bible open just searching for some hope. The verse that I came across was: Philippians
4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and
petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God
which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ
Jesus.
with my Bible open just searching for some hope. The verse that I came across was: Philippians
4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and
petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God
which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ
Jesus.
For the first time in
my life, I got down on my knees and surrendered “my life and my control” to
Christ. I not only surrendered my life but I surrendered my unborn children. It
may sound kind of strange, you may be thinking they were not living, but I knew
that God could do a miracle.
my life, I got down on my knees and surrendered “my life and my control” to
Christ. I not only surrendered my life but I surrendered my unborn children. It
may sound kind of strange, you may be thinking they were not living, but I knew
that God could do a miracle.
I knew that God could move mountains and I believed that He
could move them in me.
could move them in me.
On bended knee I said to Him, “No matter what you decide for
my life and the lives of my babies, I will love you and I will trust you. I cannot
do this on my own. I ask for only one thing, a peace that surpasses my
understanding.”
my life and the lives of my babies, I will love you and I will trust you. I cannot
do this on my own. I ask for only one thing, a peace that surpasses my
understanding.”
At that time, I didn’t understand how and why this happened.
Now I know, MY GOD IS IN CONTROL, and He wanted me to know it. He can move mountains and He moved them in me. I praise Him for
revealing Himself to me in such a powerful way.
Now I know, MY GOD IS IN CONTROL, and He wanted me to know it. He can move mountains and He moved them in me. I praise Him for
revealing Himself to me in such a powerful way.
You see, my life is not my own. My children’s life is not
mine. We belong to Him. I praise Him for
being a God bigger than all my situations.I praise God for not only being a God that could move mountains but for being a sovereign God who knows better than I in matters of my life.
mine. We belong to Him. I praise Him for
being a God bigger than all my situations.I praise God for not only being a God that could move mountains but for being a sovereign God who knows better than I in matters of my life.
Are you in a situation right now? Do you need to know there is a God who is bigger than all you are facing right now?
He sees you. He knows
what you are going through. He has been through all your pains.
what you are going through. He has been through all your pains.
Do you trust Him? Have you surrendered “your life” to Him?
Are you living under the impression that you are in control? Do you want to
release that control to Him?
Are you living under the impression that you are in control? Do you want to
release that control to Him?
If you have given your
life to Christ, you can have this assurance from Philippians
3:20-21, But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from
there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables Him to bring
everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will
be like His glorious body.
life to Christ, you can have this assurance from Philippians
3:20-21, But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from
there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables Him to bring
everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will
be like His glorious body.
Paul tells us in his letter, written from prison, everything is under HIS control. Amen! Are you thankful for that assurance? Being a follower of Christ is not about me. It is not about my own control. It is surely not about my own selfishness. Daily, I have to put myself aside and chose Him.
Praise God! My life is always being transformed; I pray that God will make me more like Him.
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something you want to give to Christ.
something you want to give to Christ.
Don’t carry it with you another moment. Give it to Him today. Feel free to even post anonymously
something that you want to surrender to Him today so your friends here can pray with you.
something that you want to surrender to Him today so your friends here can pray with you.
Jaime, tears are streaming. Oh how good is our GOD? I praise Him with you. Amen
God is amazing, besides moving my mountain of be overly in control of everything, HE gave me a peace that surpassed my understanding. Even when the tears flows, a sudden peace always follows. Love my Lord!
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