miscarriage Archives - Seeking God with Jaime Wiebel https://jaimewiebel.com/tag/miscarriage/ Finding Our Identity in the Heart of God. Tue, 02 Feb 2021 07:12:10 +0000 en-US hourly 1 https://i0.wp.com/jaimewiebel.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/03/cropped-Seeking-God-Purple-Flower-Logo-White-Circle-3.png?fit=32%2C32&ssl=1 miscarriage Archives - Seeking God with Jaime Wiebel https://jaimewiebel.com/tag/miscarriage/ 32 32 137340927 My Garden Prayer https://jaimewiebel.com/my-garden-prayer-and-sitting-among-friends/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=my-garden-prayer-and-sitting-among-friends https://jaimewiebel.com/my-garden-prayer-and-sitting-among-friends/#comments Wed, 19 Oct 2016 07:59:00 +0000 http://fuh.sak.mybluehost.me/2016/10/19/my-garden-prayer-and-sitting-among-friends/ It was Wednesday and in the hopes of pursuing “life as normal”, I went to church. I was my son’s class teacher and I thought we could use the break. When we got to the church, I felt the urge to go to the sanctuary to pray. For the first time in my life, I […]

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It was Wednesday and in the hopes of pursuing “life as normal”, I went to church. I was my son’s class teacher and I thought we could use the break.
When we got to the church, I felt the urge to go to the sanctuary to pray.
For the first time in my life, I felt the urge to be absolutely broken before my King and He called me to my knees.
Don’t get me wrong, I had cried out before to the Lord in desperation. But I had never come before Him when He has called me to surrender.
I had before me an unexplained loss and I thought I would come for answers. Wouldn’t you know it, when you bend your knee in surrender, He is willing to give you a few.
Tucked in the pew, on my knees, I looked at the cross that hung at the front of the church. As I began to shudder in tears, the words poured from my heart.

Heavenly Father,

I don’t understand. Please help me to see. I know you and only you can make the tests wrong. You can prove to everyone you are a miracle worker.

I know I have strayed far from you and I am sorry.
Lord, only you know what happened, only you can make their hearts beat again.

Lord, only you know the outcome of this and can see how this is going to end and so now I want to surrender myself and my babies to you.

Lord, if they are sick, if they could not take this world then thank you and I love you for taking care of them and keeping them in your loving arms. Lord, they are far better off than I am.

If you want me to take care of them, Lord, I would be honored and I will do what I can to be a good mom.

I am asking, Lord, in this moment that you do your will, not mine, but yours. If you are willing to take this from me, then I will promise to do my part in caring for them.

If it is your will, then I promise to love you no matter what your decision.

Over and over, I prayed. Over and Over, I submitted my will.
Not my will but yours be done. I promise to love you, no matter what.

As my heart wrenched, I said, Lord, I ask for one thing. I ask that you give me peace beyond my understanding.

I walked out the sanctuary and into the rest of the week.
Friday came. We went for another ultrasound. The results. No heartbeats. As the doctor attempted to explain the procedure, I told him, I knew what they needed to do.
Because of the procedure, I was not able to see them. In an attempt to protect me, it took two grueling days.
I can’t explain my heartache but I can explain the overwhelming peace that was beyond my understanding.
The empty places in my heart that were reserved just for them, is filled with the love and peace of God that only He can offer.
A couple of years later, I was doing an in-depth study on the life of Jesus. What I saw in looking at my own past I, too, moved by the spirit, had my own Garden Prayer.
Before Jesus endured the cross, He went to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray.
As His soul was consumed with sorrow to the point of death, He fell facedown to the ground before His Father and prayed.
“Abba, Father,” he cried out, “everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” Mark 14:36 (NLT)
 
Then after returning from the disciples.
He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”  Matthew 26:42 (NIV)
 
God the Father could have taken the cup from Jesus. God could have chosen a different route. But Jesus bent His knee and will to His Father.
They knew it was the only way. He was the perfect and final sacrifice needed to bring us into a perfect relationship with the Father.
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds, we are healed. Isaiah 53:5 (NIV)
Why would He suffer?
For you and me!
So we could be brought into peace before our Heavenly Father. So we could be healed by His wounds.
Your story may not be the same as mine. But we have all suffered. In John 16:33 Jesus tells us in this world you will have trials and sorrows, but take heart, I have overcome the world!
Next week, I want to offer you more Hope that comes from healing and comfort from the Lord in our times of brokenness, hopelessness, and suffering. Please return for the final piece in this mini-series.

 

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It was December 2009, one week before Christmas. I had been so excited to go to the doctor to do what every new and expecting parent gets to do, have an ultrasound.
I had decided to take my mom and dad because my dad had never gotten to go to an ultrasound before. We were so excited as we quickly jammed into the extra small room that happened to be the only one left at the clinic.
As the tech apologized for the really small room but we were so excited to see the sweet little faces, feet, and hands of that new little person that we didn’t care if we had to squeeze into a closet.
Of course, all eyes are on the screen except mine. Mine were on this amazing group of people that had come to celebrate this day: my husband, my little boy, my mom and dad, and the tech (I’m sure she was excited). We waited eagerly to hear those first sounds that all moms and dads long to hear.
That precious heartbeat. The sound is a symphony to a mom’s ears. When you hear that sound, oh, how your heart melts.
Feeling and hearing the signs of life, your heart grows a little bigger to have a special place for that little one.
Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being. Genesis 2:7 (NIV)
This particular day was different. As I looked at the screen, I noticed two little bodies lying feet to feet. Cradled in the lower part of the womb God created for them.
I couldn’t believe my eyes. Two? Really? Mine?
As my excitement grew for two littles. I looked at the others in the room and they looked as surprised and confused as I did.
The looks and the excitement quickly faded as I looked into the tear-filled eyes of the tech.
That precious sound we so desperately waited for was not there. No heart beats. No movement.
The moment everything changes. The moment your dreams of holding and loving the precious little darlings you knew from deep within for the first time is quickly snapped away. Your spirit is crushed like nothing you ever knew.
I insisted that the tech was wrong. We had just heard at least one at the last appointment. I asked her to get the Doppler. Maybe. Just Maybe. That would work, after all, it picked up a heartbeat the last time.
The doctor came in and verified they were not viable. Their hearts break with mine as they recommended I take some time to think about this.
I didn’t understand. How was it, I was in my twenty-first week of pregnancy and they missed something? Like a whole other baby or the fact that there was something wrong.
Now, they wanted me to go home and think about this for a few days.  
The feelings are none that I can explain. The loss of two little darlings at the same time. Unexplainable.
Because I was as far along as I was, it was considered a pregnancy loss. Meaning, I had to make some decisions about what would happen to the babies.
So I had to wait. I was left with few answers and an unexplained loss. 
If you have gone through this or a miscarriage (I also had a miscarriage right after this pregnancy loss), I know the pain is so great. I want to say to you, I am so sorry. I don’t know if there is any greater heartbreak than losing a child.  
I didn’t mean to fly through this story but my story doesn’t end there. I will share more of it next week.
Before you go, know that there is hope and I hope I will be able to encourage you through this experience.
My rest and my hope came from Jesus and I want to encourage you to lean into Him. Next week, I will talk to you more about how I did just that.  
If you are at a place where you need some hope to move you to a new place, I hope you will come back. I know our stories are not the same and no one has the same exact story or feelings but I want to encourage you more.   
Quick Fact: October 1988, President Ronald proclaimed October as National Pregnancy Loss and Miscarriage Awareness Month.
I want to use this opportunity to be able to encourage you with my story.
The comfort I received from Christ was not to be kept to myself but to encourage others.
He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 2 Corinthians 1:4

Whatever your situation, please do not feel like you have to face this alone. Please seek out someone that has been in your place or seek online help resources. Also, if you ever need to contact me for encouragement or a conversation you can contact me at jaime@jaimewiebel.com
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