So often we want to be in the Lord’s will meaning we want God to do what we want Him to do for our benefit.

As I was on my knees before the Lord, I said, “Lord, not my will but yours be done.” I had never prayed in this manner before and never thought I would be praying this over the lives of my babies.

But here I was, seeking the Lord’s absolute will and only asking for the peace that only He can give.

We can ask a lot of questions and He may be willing to give us answers but sometimes our why or why not are to understand that God is Sovereign.  That He rules and reigns over all.

He wants us to know that with all of the modern technology, there are not always definitive answers and with all of the modern technology, God’s decides the beating of a heart.

Why? Because Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life and the man became a living being. Genesis 2:7

The LORD breathed into man the breath of life and through the life of Job we are reminded And he said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.” Job 1:21

The Lord decides when to give life and He decides when to take it away.

I promised the Lord one thing that day. No matter what, I will love you.

And I do. With all my heart and not because he gave me what my heart desired but because He rescued me from myself through it all.

I had been the prodigal daughter and He was waiting with open arms for me to come running to Him and He knew what it would take. This was it.

A couple of weeks ago as my kids and I were driving on our way to school, they asked me, “Mommy, why did the babies die? (Keep in mind this is going on eight years ago. But they know they have a brother, sister and another baby in heaven.)

I told them it was because God wanted them in heaven with Him. Why they wanted to know. My only response, Because He wanted me back more.

I don’t know God’s plans for my life. I don’t pretend to know what it is that God processes or thinks. His ways are higher than mine and I praise Him for that.

What I do know is that when God loses one of His children. When the Good Shepherd has lost one of His sheep. He will go after them. Sometimes in ways that are beyond our comprehension.

Being the Good Good Father that He is, it is for His glory and for His kingdom gain.

I can tell you, had my life not been affected in this drastic way, I probably would not be sitting here today with you.

Although some questions are never answered, we can walk in faith that God Knows and it goes according to His plan. We can trust that all things flow from His goodness.

To answer some of my questions, He did. 

Why? Because He is sovereign. He is above all and in control of all and even when it all seems to be falling completely apart, He holds life in the palm of His hand.

Why? Because He has us sketched in the palm of His hand and no one, not even ourselves, will snatch us away.

Why? Because His plans for us are to draw near to Him where we can be protected and lead to walk in His path so we can know the great Love that He has for us in every situation.

Would I get to hold their little hands and kiss their sweet little feet? No. In fact, I wouldn’t get to see them at all. Their handprints and footprints were given to me right after they were delivered. You wouldn’t believe how small and oh so perfect they are.

We named our little boy Noah and our little girl Faith. The week I had to “think it all over” gave me a chance to process some of what happened.

What I have are the memories held together by the peace of God that has surpassed all of my understanding. The memories of what God did for me so I would know how to praise Him through it all and to love Him no matter the circumstance surrounding my day.

Their lives were fragile. All life is fragile and precious and we should look at each day as the gift that God meant it to be. We should live for praising God in this moment and leave tomorrow to deal with itself.

Noah and Faith have been the rainbow at the end of the rainy day that brought me back God.

I would love to say it was that easy. One week and that was it. Like everything we are a process in which God needs to work in our lives.  Although God worked mightily in that week, I am still learning what God wants to teach me. 

The important part is I am learning with Him by my side.

Your story may not be anything like mine. But God can work in the same way.

God can give us peace when life is beyond our comprehension. He can give us life when we are threatened with throwing it all away to be more like this world.

He can stop us in our tracks to get our attention and reroute our current path.

No matter what, we can be assured of this, God loves us very much and in this world, we will have trouble but in Christ Jesus and what He did on the cross we can have hope and peace.

We can have hope in the midst of our circumstances, heartbreaks, trials, daily lives and most importantly when life hurts the most. 

Christ died so that we may live and live this life to the fullest. We get so much grace and mercy poured out on us that we can have an overflow to pour out onto others.

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